Posted in 2016-2017, Issue #02, Poetry

Adopting Unwanted Gifts Or, This Is All I’m Left With

By Josh Snyder

Hold a mirror to yourself
and consider the eyes that stare
back at you. When you cannot stand it,
blink.
Wonder how on earth you did it.

Now look at someone else.
Study their movements,
how they cover their smile
when they laugh,
how they burst with passion,
how they could talk for hours.

Notice the way they soften,
their hands resting over yours
like flower petals falling overtop
each other. Watch them finally
blink.
And wonder:
how marvelous.

Time will pass.
When you look at yourself
in the mirror and study
the structure that looks
back at you, observe
the similarities
you have collected.

You will laugh at yourself,
hands coming up to hide
your crescent moon smile.
You will fizzle out after
becoming a firework
of passion, and you will think:
how did I do that.

Realize how you have been shaped
into something new.
You are no longer yourself,
but rather a fusion
of those you admire. Had admired.
Of those you love. Had loved.

Cram these new things into the spaces
where the old things were.
The parts of yourself you never meant
to lose will be replaced by the parts
of others you never meant to consume.

Keep these things safe.
Cherish them for all
they are. Cautiously
raise your hand to cover
your own smile,
and think,
incredulously:
my God, here I am.

Author:

Post Script is a magazine written, edited, and produced by the Creative Writing Department of Barbara Ingram School for the Arts. Through our articles, stories, poems, and the occasional lifehack, we have shared some of the things most important to us. There is a remarkable diversity of talent to be found in our students and their work, and we are unified by a common respect for that diversity. The editors and writers that make Post Script possible don’t have an end goal in sight, but instead a vision of a magazine that allows us to explore, learn, and grow. We have ventured into a new medium for self-expression and self-reflection, and hope that our art and the effort that went into this project will encourage, engage, and enlighten readers of all backgrounds.

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